Hi , it is almost midnight here. 11.09 PM my head is
currently thinking about going back to Uni. To be honest I’m not ready at all.
I will leave in less than a week but I haven’t start packing yet. I’m thinking
about bringing some ranau sejati food. Lada padas tuhau and so on. But then
remembering how life I am about to live as a stud completely kill my thought of
bringing some food. I lose my selera suddenly. I don’t even know why. probably
because I am alone and some of the days I miss my family so bad and you know
college things never been as sweet as in a local drama. It was almost my one
year being in a new place and truth to be told there is still a lot of things I
cannot adapt. From friends to the environment it is still so strange to me
sometimes. Everything is a brand new to me. back then I visualize my uni life
would be freaking awesome like outing everywhere meeting new people doing this
and that as you want having no one to make you stay grounded and I thought I’m
going to explore the real freedom of being a teenager. However once I
reached there. All the thought had been destroyed by I don’t really sure what. All of
sudden I miss all the things I hate the most before. Someone to keep nag at me,
someone to take care of me, someone to tell me that I can’t do this and even a
fight with my little sister is such a good thing to have that time. it was such
a nightmare for me for being in a new place and know no one. The MAP is
the strongest memory. It was a one-week orientation for a new stud and can I
call that as the longest one week in my entire life. I was only 20 back then
and I’m away from everyone I love. I just did whatever I was told to and stay
quiet for the rest of the day. I cry myself to sleep and whenever I have time I
will immediately call my parents. It was a very memorable and valuable
experience for me. I stay in a single room and I never feel so alone but that
time yes I felt alone. however as time goes by thing started to work out for me
and yes I’m still in my process of adjusting myself and I trust my uni life
will be the best time of my life. And seeing my junior really enjoy their
orientation day envied me. How I wish I had that feeling back then. Never mind
it’s gone. Just enjoy and live the present to the fullest!